Another day....

So this morning I woke up 10 minutes late cause my alarm didn't go off, but my mom wakes me up everyday anyways. So I don't really need an alarm. Since I showered the night before I jumped right out of bed and worked out, which I feel GREAT about. I stretched, warm-ed up, then danced for a good half hour before getting dressed and eating a small bowl of cheerios and taking my multi-vitamin. So my day was off to a good start.

Today i began a new practice. Counting calories. I gotta say if you are trying to lose weight and aren't already doing this, DO IT!!!! Nothing makes you stop eating and pigging out more than knowing just how much you are consuming. I am disappointed that I ate a whooping 1485 cals, but if I hadn't recorded it I just know I would've had more. My mom bought a bunch of junk food: doritos, brownies, soda... cheese and chocolate, my weaknesses. :( I MUST STAY STRONG AND OUT OF THE KITCHEN!!!!

I walked my dog when I got home from work and now I'm going to dance more. For at least an hour. I need to burn some cals.


Here are some new tricks I learned that are helping me towards my goal.
1.Calorie counting (as I said before) It REALLY works.

2.When you eat out or get fast food, order from the kids menu. The portions are made to be smaller cause kids just don't eat like adults do. This makes it so you can't eat as much cause there isn't that much to eat.

3.This REALLY works for me, when I get hungry, I look at pictures or videos of people being injected. Weird? Yes, but hear me out. Ever since I can remember I have been TERRIFIED by needles and syringes. It scares me so much that just the sight of a needle going into someones arm makes me feel sick to my stomach and I can't eat. Of course if this doesn't bother you it won't really work, but find out what really sickens you and use it to fight your hunger.


And now....GAL THINSPO!!!!!

Aina, I love this pic of her, and her legs are perfect. She's so thin.

Cocona. shes too cute and super tan...sigh i miss my tan. :(

Aina again. 

Yumachi, my favorite thinspo model. She is SO thin. 

Yumachi & Aina...I wish I looked that good in a bikini. :(

Well there you have it. I wasn't expecting this post to be so long. Hope you enjoy! Never give up on you dream to be thin. Once you do, that's when you lose the battle with food.

~Thanks for following <3     

Toxicwasted

A moment of truth

Today is Tuesday.....you know what that means? Tuesday is the day i "officially" weigh myself each week. I've gotta say i'm really depressed this time. I gained a lb and am at 185. I wanna cry right now. Seriously, and this is all my fault. I ate more than i should have on some days, and used the cold snowy weather as an excuse not to go out for my usual run. STUPID! Now I have to suffer for it.

Well this week is a new week, and I am gonna lose weight damn it! after I write this I'm going to exercise. Dance and go for a long ass run. And yes, it's cold, but this is what I must do. I hate being such a fat ass.

Anyways...(change of subject)
My fat friend, she weighs a least 300lbs I swear, didn't go to school Friday. Why you ask? because she is having back pain from being overweight! SERIOUSLY?! You're body is trying to tell you something. You're fat. I feel bad because she just doesn't want to change, but it's her body and I guess if thats how she wants to spend the rest of her life (with health problems, and disgusted looks) its not my place to interfere, but i'm worried for her life. Oh, she also doesn't have her periods because her weight is so out of hand. Whenever I look at her I can't eat. I don't want to live the fat life.

I'm taking a multi-vitamin now. Since I don't get enough of what I need from food anymore. This will also keep my mom off my back when I start REALLY losing weight.

Well, I need to get off my ass. Time to work for my goal! I'm still so mad that I gave in to food this week. I hate myself for being so weak. I know you are all strong and can resist. Let's fight the war against fat together!
~kisses

Toxic buzzed...an introduction.

Well, this is my first blog...so go easy on me, 'kay?
Let me just start by telling you a little about myself. first off, I'm a 20 year old girl, who lives in the US. Not anywhere glamorous, just a small town in Ohio that none of you have ever heard of.  I go to school part time, and work at a local pizza place. Not the most fun job but whatever. My weekends can get really insane, but before you judge me just remember no one is perfect and i would never judge you. Without knowing you personally first of course.

My Interests vary, and I always change my mind. I like lots of things.

First off my life would be nothing without music. I like rock music most, glam metal, death metal, southern rock, (some) country, electronic music, and some pop and hip-hop. Right now, I just can't get enough of Ke$ha. Oh, and my friend introduced me to dub-step recently. I love it.

Fashion always will be important to me. I'm crazy for extreme fashion, and anything out of the ordinary. I consider my biggest influences to be Japanese gyaru fashion, biker, rocker, and 80's hair band fashion. Crazy? Ya, I know.

I'm very shy in person, but love to meet new people. also like many girls very self-conscious about my appearance. I'm tall, 5'10", have gray eyes, and dyed caramel-ish colored hair. Currently I weight 184lbs, which is less than 2 weeks ago when I was 190. Ya, I never wanna see that number on a scale again. My GW is 140, that's a stretch, but if I try hard maybe I'll get there by July.

So now about my blog.
This is going to be some-what of an online diary. Where I put many random things that interest me, or I find to be helpful. You can definitely expect to see:
Thinspo
Music
My favorite fashion pics/pieces
Links to diet, tanning, and other beauty sites
Crazy stories of my life (i'll keep to a minimum)
Gyaru fashion
Other fun stuff :)

If you want feel free to message or e-mail me. I love to offer support and am never judgmental.
kisses~Toxic Gal