Restricted foods.

I haven't drank pop in like 4 or 5 months. It's great, though I haven't lost weight because of it. grrrr. Anyways I don't plan to drink pop, I'm done. I try to stick to 0 cal drinks too which limits me to tea, water and coffee. But I found these super awesome carbonated waters at Wal-mart. for 69 cents. :) They have like 15 flavors too. I'm going to keep restricting foods that are bad (haha all food is bad) kidding don't listen to me. But ya, No more Nutella cause that is 1. high cal and 2. a binge food. Evil! I won't eat Oreos either for the same reasons. So no more of that crap.

I got a new job! So I have two now. I got a job at my moms doctor's office as a secretary. It's really nice and I enjoy it a lot. Just sucks they get food at the office a lot. Like today we ordered Chili's. Which broke a fast I had going. (14 hours) I wanted to go at least 24 hours....well that just means I had to start again. I had cereal when I got home, so I'm not really sure how long it's been since I ate...I think I ate at 5:30 so I'll say fast started at 6 which means it's only been 3 hours since I ate. No wonder I feel gross... :( I'm not eating anymore tonight, and no breakfast tomorrow. Skipping meals again!

I wanna go get something to drink but don't want to spend money. I need to save every penny so I can go on a trip during the summer. Me and a friend are going to Japan! :D I can't wait! I want to get down under 140 for the trip so I can easily fit in some cute clothes from Japanese shops like Liz Lisa or Ceceil McBee. So ya, I need to lose weight and save money.

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@Lottie- Thank you! You're always so nice and lovely. :) I bought the bikini. I got a medium which is a little small for me. It will fit when I reach 140 though. That's for sure.

@mylittlebone-Thanks for following me, I like your blog :)

@Megan- I just use my fingers which sucks cause I don't have much of a gag reflex and I have to force it which can really hurt. (I've scratched myself before many times) I hate doing it, and don't recommend it at all. I thought you could still get ipecac but you just had to go to the pharmacy counter and ask for it?

@FightToBeThin- Ugh, tell me about it. Sometimes I feel like I might just break right in front of everyone...I hate it, being so broken on the inside and on the outside no one even sees. The other day my friend said I'm fun to be around cause I'm always happy. If they only knew...

@Cleona- Ya, it sucks cause I'm the older sister and should set a good example. I pray to god that I never trigger or have triggered her. She seems to be somewhat normal, but I do notice she binges daily... she has put on weight too, and I hope she doesn't let it depress her. I know what you mean, It's hard knowing what they are going through, but idk how I could help.

Thinspo time, I kinda have a boney/emaciated/super thin theme going on.

I think I'm gonna finish reading Wintergirls for the second time, then I'm gonna read Unbearable Lightness. I already read Wasted, but are there any other good triggering books about eating disorders or anorexia? Have a lovely day. Thank you all for still following me, I know I don't post as often as I say I will.

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